What A Week

We ate early on Thanksgiving because everyone had to be somewhere else that night. I left to Sacramento that night. I didn't want to stay and deal with my mom and her dramas. Since Friday was Black Friday, I went shopping for a dress for my dad dinner party on the 5th of December. I didn't find one that day. I wasn't in the mood to shop. So on Saturday, I went shopping with my sister and I did end up finding a dress. It's black with red. That night, my sister dragged me to her boyfriend nephew birthday party. It was held at a roller skate place. We only stayed for an hour because we had to attend a party. Since it started at 730 that night, I didn't have that much time to get ready. I just retouch my makeup and curl my hair. I didn't want to attend, but my sister dragged me and so I went. Surprisingly, I enjoy it.

That night, I meet two guys. They are both the same age. The first guy was a friend my sister boyfriend. I feel bad because he had went and asked him over to keep me company. We dances a few times. He was nice. The second guy was my sister fault. She started talking to him and dragged me into the conversation. Later he just started talking to me and we also dance once.

I've been texting and talking to my sister boyfriend friend. Just as friends. So yeah. The another one called me earlier and we talked for a little bit. He kept on telling me that the other guy was interested in me, so he left me along. I thought that was funny. My sister had also told me the same thing. So weird. But anyway, there's no interest there, but just friends.

The reason why is that I still have some stuff I have to deal with. Things that I have to let go of if I truly want to be happy. I can't look forward into the future until I have all of these stuff figure out. I don't how I'm going to do it, but I have too. It have been too long and it's something that I can't take anymore. It's killing me and it's breaking my heart each and everyday. If I continue, I really don't know what's going to become of me. I can't think of "what ifs" or regrets anymore. I deserve to be happy just like everyone around me and right now I'm not. I feel more alone right now, then I have ever felt. Everytime I think about it, it just bring tears to my eyes. I don't want that anymore. As much as it's hurting me right now, I have to do this for me. I want this done with by the end of this month so that I can start fresh next year. To be free and to be happy.

On a happy note, my job interview went really well yesterday. I got my finger prints done today. As soon as that clear, they are going to called me to go do my physical and get my TB shot. I'm quite excited. I was really lucky because I was told that the lady that hired me was only supposed to hired three, but she said she needed five people. I was the fourth one. If she didn't asked for five, I wouldn't have gotten this job. So I'm truly am grateful for this opportunity.

Well goodnight!

~YoursTrulyJustSimplyMe